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"Mama Sit Down."

Feb 5, 2019
2 min

"Mama Sit Down."

“Mama sit down.” These are the famous words I hear at 8:02 every evening. When I am spent. Every ounce of my energy has been zapped, every morsel of anything left to give has been dried up. I. Am. Done. And yet, mothering is never done. Each night when I put my 2 ½ year old in her bed, she says to me, “I have to go potty.” I am immediately filled with dread. My inner monologue begins:" Why? Why now? Do I have to take her to the bathroom? Of course, you have to take her to the

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All Great Changes are Proceeded by Chaos

May 9, 2018
3 min

All Great Changes are Proceeded by Chaos

Change is hard. No one embraces change with ease or contentment…unless they are faced with such a dire circumstance that forces them to have a difficult mental discussion within their own head where change is imperative. I feel that is where I was. When I was diagnosed, almost a year ago I knew I had to make a serious change. At first it was easy, I was running on adrenaline and moving through the motions of appointments and scans. But then chemo started…the red “devil” prett

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Hardly Recognizable

Nov 10, 2017
3 min

Hardly Recognizable

Here I am four months after all my hair fell out. It was a traumatic scene for me (read about it here) and what felt like it would take forever is now right in front of me. In May, November seemed eons away and now I am inching my way closer to phase two of my cancer journey. Getting used to myself without hair took some time, and now that it is growing back I am out of my comfort zone. The last time I had hair this short I was probably 5-6 months old. And now that my hair is

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