be still and smile

From the moment people found out I had cancer and hair loss came up in conversation people would say, “It’s just hair.” Which that is very true. But I think the only people saying that, are the ones not losing it. I was devastated to lose my hair. I may not have shown it on the outside, because really… what control did I have of the situation? On the inside, I was crying, long and hard. Everyone has something about their physical appearance that sort of defines them. My hair

This journey is full of milestones, some are reason to celebrate, most are valleys that dare to dip into a pity party, because they royally suck emotionally. The first is pretty obvious, the diagnosis. Then there’s finding out all the details of your diagnosis and how far your cancer has officially spread. Then the anxiety of starting chemotherapy. Then dealing with the hair loss situation. I have purposely decided to be ahead a step or two, because I didn’t want to be blinds

Today Nene came into town to play with the girls so Evan and I could run errands. Our first stop was at LiveStrong, we met a really kind lady who gave us a packet of information, but there weren’t support groups like in the past. Next stop was trying to locate the Breast Cancer Resource Center; we finally filled out my form to have someone reach out to me. Then Evan and I went to lunch, we found Veggie Heaven downtown, it was surprisingly delicious. We got spicy edamame, miso